Over the last few months, I have experienced numerous changes. One of which has led to the biggest change of all. Though I've been told it doesn't show very much, there is now more Keeta than there was prior to the stressful period (a year and a half ago). 40 lbs more. I bet you thought I meant something else when you read the title? *smile* No, I am simply referring to gaining weight. But the figurative meaning has something to do with this as well.
I gain weight in times of stress, like many other persons I'm sure. Comfort food is a friend, but tomorrow, you wont be feeling too comfortable about it. With the increased weight came increased sensitivity about same. Worse, in an image absorbed society (yes Jamaica is just as bad as the US) I had a lot to come to terms with. I felt very unlike myself for a long time and to make matters worse, the things I tried didn't seem to be helping much.
I remember watching this episode of "What Not to Wear", Stacy advised the makeover recipient to dress for the body she had. More importantly you need to love the body you have, even if it has gotten bigger or smaller and you may not be so happy with the changes. But guess what, I didn't change, just the outside. So I've learnt to appreciate the "bigger" me. So it has made it easier to adjust to the changes I was making.
I rediscovered a fabulous little thing, you have to accept things before changing them. Sounds like a paradox? It isn't. Accepting something as I refer to it here means simply seeing it for what it is. Once you do that, you can move on, make changes, make it better. I know that conventionally "accepting something" means that you come to terms with the way something is and it stays that way. Let's deconstruct what we've been taught for our entire lives. In keeping with that, accepting will mean simply a more intuitive understanding of the situation/thing in question.
So I've accepted the changes (and in the meantime I'm still fab) and I'm making Keeta better. Come on girlies, you can do the same. Let's GO!!!!!
Peace and luv
-Keeta :)
you look great! loving the hair and dress
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ReplyDeleteKeeta you're as beautiful as ever... inside and out. You go girlie!
ReplyDeleteYou look fabulous! The thing is (and I know this speech well because I have to say it to my heavier self in the mirror every day), how could we never expect to change? We're always supposed to stay one size, always look the same way, always be the same? How is that even possible? I (and you) should be able to conquer the world regardless of other the [controllable and lesser] changes going on in my life too. I have bigger fish to fry (and nyam) and I (you) just need to make sure I'm (you're) healthy and mostly mentally sound so that I (you) can do it. The lesson of priorities escape a LOT of people. *stepping off soapbox*
ReplyDeleteThat dress is fierce, by the way!
...and I love the new blog look, it is so you!
Thx Ruthi and I totally hear u Are.
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