Now I know the title of this one may cause you to wonder what is she talking about? Nothing naughty by the way, in case you were wondering (and if you were hoping for naughty well I apologize) Before I get into what I mean? I'll ask you a question? What is it that defines you? Have the answer? Good (if you don't, not to worry, just give it some more thought) Now, suppose you didn't have that anymore, what would you do? How would you feel? If it was a part of your physical appearance, does it connect in someway to your personality?
Now that you've thought on that I will tell you what I am talking about. For years I had long hair. Pretty much I defined myself by my hair. And then I decided to cut off. Almost all of it. I must admit that there were some influences connnected to my Masters research paper that also influenced the decision. How so you may ask? Well in Jamaica, I am often judged (overly so) by how I look. Browning with long hair i.e. people immediately think uptown priss. So I chopped it off, followed by not wearing any makeup at all in the days anymore. Not only have I had to adjust the morning routine to get ready and how I self-style my hair, but I have also adjusted how preoccupied I am about outward appearances because where I'll be collecting data people would be quick to assume. So while I can't do much about my skintone. I adjusted the Keeta that everyone was used to. This was my decision. My supervisor never said you need to do this, but I must admit I'm sure the change didn't hurt either. So even though its just hair, I have developed a new identity of sorts. I'm a little more mellow and for now taking a nice break from the super girly-girl I have always been. But not for too long. It's who I am deep down but right now, since the focus needs to be more serious, I decided to cut off my identity *grin*. Revamping is always a good idea anyway. Now I can evolve as it grows back. Who wouldn't love a fresh start like that?
Peace & Luv
-Keeta :)
